My Mindless Self Indulgence

So as of right now i have 3 more weeks in this fuck of a place known as Sierra Vista, AZ. That’s even if i get to leave on time. (fucking c co.) After i graduate i will be heading to my new duty station, Fort Bliss in Texas. For the past couple of weeks all i have been hearing is that El Paso is pretty shitty, but being out of Southern Arizona and being out of AIT, i will accept anything then this. For the next two weeks i will be out in the field playing some war games. So ill be dormant online until then. I have also been working on a new service called, indieCoreTV: Artists Edition. Ill post more about it in the coming weeks. Until i get back, stay classy San Diego.

I have a new show airing this Friday on indieCore radio. It’s been awhile since i have done something like this and it feels really good to have started one again. This is more then just my old podcast, because this is my new show for my radio station… DUH! Anyways i play basically anything i fucking want and well, the usual. It starts this Friday and a new show will air every Friday and will be available on iTunes as a podcast. So you will be able to listen to it whenever you like, where ever you like. The show is on at 9PM(central time) on Friday nights.

Also if your a iPhone owner don’t forget you can listen to indieCore radio anywhere with a 3G or WIFI connection. We need iPhone owners to test this out for us and tell us how it works for them. Just either leave a comment below or shoot an email on the indieCore website. Link to the iPhone site is below. Also note that this does work with iPod Touch users that are connected to a WIFI connection.

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Whats goin on guys? Sorry i haven’t been on here in a while, been busy patrying and all that shit. I got a new tattoo the other day. Its the theme for the sleeve im starting on my left arm. It’s “Follow Your Bliss”. It really makes sense to me right now, i always need to follow what makes me happy.

The other day i went to Tombstone down here in Arizona. I have heard of the theatre called the BirdCage, but actually never got a chance to go to it. Well i finally decided that i should at least experience their ghost tour before i make my way to El Paso. Lets just say that the time i spent there (especially in the total darkness), didn’t really scare the shit out of me, but opened my eyes even more to the paranormal.

Check my facebook for the pics…

Well hey guys, been a few fucking days since I’ve posted in this blog. I’ve just been busy as fuck doing random repetitive tasks (because thats what you do in the army), along with getting no sleep as usual. This past weekend, i went ghost hunting in Bisbee, AZ and it was awesome, took a couple bad ass pics with one of them showing a ghost. No shitting you, not faked or anything, scared the hell out of me. I put them on the bottom of this post, so seriously check em out. I’ll be posting an update on my EP in the coming week.

UPDATE: I realized that i don’t have the pic on me. I’m waiting for it to be sent. GRR!!!

So today i have started a new hobby. I installed the newest beta for FireFox and remembered that Mozilla’s Persona’s were built in. I was looking through most of them and was like, WTF? Some are just plan nasty. With that said, i have started to design some to break the mold. I already made two at the writing of this post, but in my free time, the list will grow. If you want one made just hit me up and i will get it done. (eventually)

http://emoruffino.com/personas

So i like the my new demo so much that im changing the name of my EP. It was supposed to be called, With My Wings Of Pestilence since the end of 2008, but that was over two years ago. I think the new album name fits the angle im trying to push. Especially with this being one of the singles off the EP, it just works. If you don’t like the change, let me know. But i think it will work out. Check out my new demo!

http://www.myspace.com/emoruffinomusic

So musiCure media is now open. indieCore radio is gettin very popular. But there was one problem to that, indieCore only plays rock. I have been getting alot of emails about a hip-hop/rap station. Well let me tell you, its on the way… Let me introduce to you, SwagKill radio. SwagKill will basically have all the same features of indieCore but will have your favorite old, new and undiscovered hip-hop/rap artists.

My ETA for having this station open is Januarary 16th, 2010.

http://swagkill.net - to get an idea of what it will look like.

So on monday i ended up in the hospital. How exactly i dont remember. Apparently during some combative training i hit my head pretty hard. Now as the story goes i was going to breakfast and i just all of a sudden passed out. I couldn’t tell how many fingers were on someones hand and i was taken to the clinic. There i became unresponsive to any means of trying to get my attention. They called an ambulance and took me to the hospital. They ran some tests etc. All i remember is going to be the night before and waking up in the hospital.

Have you ever watched a movie were that person wakes up in the hospital and is confused as hell? Well thats how the fuck i felt. I had all this shit attached to me and i was freaking the hell out. They released me a few hours after i fully came back to life. For the next few days i had problems with my short term memory and was very lightheaded. Now i’m feeling much better, still a little hazy, but life is getting better.

Verdict? I had a bad ass concussion and mild amnesia. Now what the fuck was i talking about?

So i have decided to bring back the age verification. Why? Because their comes a time in someones life when you realize that future postings may not be suitable for underage viewers/readers. Plus i made it really cheesy. So fuck….

So here i am trying to pay my auto insurance with ebonics. The system just about gets it all right. But you must realize that USAA is still actively working on their ebonics voice recognition system as we speak. :p

So for the past fucking month i could not find my god damned fucking camera charger. I thought this skank lost it, but turns out it was under my nose the entire time. (sneaky mofo) Anyways, thats good news for me, because i can start doing the indie music videos i’ve been planning for a while now. There going to be shitty. I tell you this now because i don’t hold back. My equipment is not the best. My software is amazing, computer is great, camera is meh… It shoots in 720p, but sony didn’t put too much thought into it. DSLR my ass. lol I guess thats what i get for getting one too early. Its like a prototype haha. Wish i would of had it yesterday when i was in tucson, but no i have to find it….. you know what, never mind, ill just let this one go. Next time this happens, someone is going down.

Look a banner or some shit…. put it on something, like a myspace or blog…..

So living this new life is really a new mind fuck for me. I understand that being in TRADOC, your a student training and shit sucks. But it seems like life is really fucking me over recently. Just recently when i tried changing my bank accounts, the pay system fucked up my information and didn’t receive a paycheck. (thats awesome when the end of the month bills pop up) Now i’m scrambling to find how to pay them while the finance office takes there sweet ass time figuring out what went wrong and when they will pay me what i’m owed.

Another one is seeing my fellow soldiers training with me and trying to determine who takes this seriously. To me it seems that the future Army is starting to become a joke. I mean will any of them really give their life for their country? I know that when i first joined i didn’t really think anything of it like i do now. My mentality has changed alot. Me personally, i would give my life for my country and my fellow brother and sisters in a heartbeat. Why? Because i have realized that its my time to serve my country, its my time to protect our freedom and way of life. Sometimes i wish i would of just went with what i secretly wanted to do and become Infantry. I’m an intelligence analyst and all jokes aside about military intelligence, its a very important job. Hopefully i will be able to go out on patrols like i hear my MOS is starting to do. I’ve always wanted to be in the fight, its not what my family wants or even my friends, but its what i dream about every night.

Now what i meant earlier about the new army becoming a joke, is that it seems like tradition is gone. Swearing in cadence is wrong, fighting out your problems is wrong, just about anything now is harrasment. How the hell can someone deal in country when they can complain very easily about anything. Also the suicide rate is growing steadily. One reason is that our cadre, our NCO’S, love to mind fuck you. They don’t realize that sometimes what they say can really fuck with someone. I should know, i have already lost two fellow battle buddies from basic training. (and i believe this is the exact reason) Instead of being constructive, they make you feel like a piece of shit by calling out your flaws, even physical attributes. (lets say your ears a big) Sure there here to make you more of a killer, but i can see why soldiers can have these thoughts alot. Its a back and forth problem. Just look at the Fort Hood shootings, same basic concept. (ill get into that if i need to later)

Now i love what i do, and i know this is not perfect, but you have ride out the storm to get what you want in the end. I am proud to be an American Soldier and to serve my country.

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So yes i am finally back. Too you all it must of seemed like forever, but to me, it seemed like a blink of an eye. Personally i am very happy with how things are going right now for me, new car, some tats, good friends. But there seems like theres something missing. I love women, i really do, and its been a long time since i’ve had a serious relationship. I miss having the little fights, the makeup sex and all that in between. Being in the Army (especially tradoc) does not even help with the situation. I lost someone i fell in love with and seems like i feel like, “What Could Of Been?” and blah blah blah. If you don’t know me yet, i really have no heart. That thing has been broken too many times and im sick of it. Hopefully one day ill find that good ol’ lovin, but for now, im fucking done.

And by the way, i started doing some photography…. Check it out!

Well its about fucking time i came back huh? Yea i know you guys fucking missed me! Anyways, this is a short post, since its fucking late as hell, and im tired as fuck. I’ll get back to this k?

So for the past 3 weeks i have been feeling very rundown. I’m a very active person, so by the end of the day i would be passing out at work or on my friends front porch. I finally got sick of feeling this way(pun included!) and went to the emergency room. They took some blood and urine tests, but whatever they were testing for came up negative and they sent me on my way. Well my lymph nodes started to swell, but one of them got really big and you could easily see it from the other side of the room. (not a tumour) So after about a week i went back to the emergency room, this time i felt like death because i was still running very active. This time they took more blood tests and through a IV into me for a possible CAT scan on my neck. Whichever blood tests they took they took one for mono. “Mononucleosis is an infectious, viral disease which most commonly occurs in adolescents and young adults. It is characterized by fever, sore throat and fatigue, along with several other possible signs and symptoms.” So with me feeling like death i was told to rest. (Just between us, mono sucks balls) So that was diagnosed on Wednesday. Come Saturday i was playing Skate2 and all of a sudden this big ass blood clot came up from my throat out of nowhere. Concerned i went to the bathroom and started spitting into the sink. What came out was nothing but pure blood. Back to the emergency room i went and this time with blood coming out of me i went straight back instead of waiting an hour to see someone. (with wheel chair!) I gave more blood. (which makes no fucking sense, i mean look, im losing blood so there going to take more. is that going to tell you why im bleeding?) An IV went into my arm and some x rays of my chest were taken. Everything came out fine and they pinpointed the issue as a swollen bronchial tube that got “destroyed”. Anyways it stopped bleeding and i got sent home. But as im writing this to you now, it has started bleeding again. Actually it started bleeding again right after i left. When i got home i felt even worse then i did when i got diagnosed. But im feeling better with the pain pills they gave me, so i’m actually able to right this. Pictures of the blood is included for your viewing pleasure.

All i can say is i thought this would be something i see off of Tim And Eric, but to my surprise, this is real….

So its been awhile since i last wrote here in my little old blog and all i can say is that i have been pretty fucking busy. I’m curently in the process of working on the last BNS movie… oh shit a spider just crawled onto my computer… Anyways, i have also been working on getting ready to leave the shit hole own of Rolla. Remember the that entry a couple posts ago that talked about me coming into Rolla? Well i have a crew now, and they are some pretty interesting friends. I had a small fling with this one girl which turned sour because apparently she was a lying, stealing whore, with a stinky bloody pussy. I’m not lying about this either, just look at this txt she sent be awhile back. (i had to save it cause it was just too funny)

Then of course i’ve been partying hard constantly. I mean when you live in yet another town that has nothing, what else can you do? Actually i’ve lived in towns where there was things to do, and we still partied hard. So did you know snorting fire ants is deadly? Apparrently these assholes on 1000 ways to die sure didnt. Fuck, i keep getting distracted…. sorry guys… So far i explained why i haven’t really been updating recently, i haven’t really said whats new with me. My newest single dubbed, “Lost For Now” on myspace got over 5,000 plays within the first week. I don’t think its so bad cause its like at 10,000 plays now and from all my songs its like 30,000. For me thats pretty damn good. I know this June before i get sent off, im going to try to finish my EP. (which is like a 3 week time frame) Anyways, i feel like i lost the point of this post so enjoy the picture of me riding in a power chair and the random music video of this entry.

So here they are ladies and gentlefucks. The final design for the indieCore radio shirts. We will have different verisons of these with different background colors. (you know to make more money) But this is also a small hint at the new version of the site were working on. But when verison 2 goes live, you will have the option to visit the old style at anytime. (cause were nice like that) Pre-ordering for the shirts will start soon. I’ll post details soon.

This is my friend AJ. He tried shaving his hair, unfortunately the batteries died in the shaver. Poor AJ. Luckily for him, he only had to endure the pain of this hair style for only 40 minutes. But his hair style will be forever incaptured right here on my blog for all to see. So with that said…. ENJOY!

So many tons of people always ask what some of my favorite bands are, so hear is a little list of the stuff i most frequently listen too. NOT A COMPLETE LIST!

So the town i have moved to it seems is another dieing small city. I mean sure, it has a college and lot of food places, but as i drive around it seems like a one of those coal towns that die. For some reason though, they feel the necessity to have around 7 subways. To my surprise, they only have one McDonald’s in town (3 in total). Now how the hell do you have 7 subways but only three micky d’s? Now I’m not endorsing McDonald’s when i say that, (yes i am, go eat that shit!) but its just who the fuck has 7 subways in one town. The movie theater in town seems alright. I haven’t gone to a show yet, but it looks ok. I still can’t find the so called skate park. So right now thats how i feel about the town. Its dying and im dying of boredom. Hopefully when school starts up again, its not plauged with the usual assholes. Im sure it is, but maybe i’ll find that special some one. Ha, yea right.

Go listen to indieCore now yo.

So as i look at my life so far, i have to say that currently everything is going pretty good. Family life is going good, the new house is pretty retro and its the shit, new school with new people to hang out with and new girls to date. indieCore is getting big along with some of my other sites. If i was to stay in Hoptown, i would be making over $60,000 a year without a high school diploma. (im getting mine, im just saying i would) I mean i have everything i could ever need right now. If i could somehow pause time, i believe i would. You know life is fucking good when you spin out your car with your friend and have a good time.

Any fucking ways, if you feel like shit, go listen to indieCore radio and it will make you smile. (unless there’s a heavy metal song playing, then id stay away from you)

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My gamertag on Xbox Live is: Damn Im So Emo. I love my xbox and i love my Xbox Live, but when im having an off match or a off day and i suck online, i fucking hate how some people love to start pulling emo jokes, even when im not. It pisses me off so bad, i sometimes even joke around, but there relentless. Oh, well, goes to show you that people can be pricks. Even on a game.

Like the pic above? Xbox released a little tool where you can make lil pics with your avatar.

P.S. I just got a new 32′ high def. Its a plasma, but im going to return it and get the LCD. Stupid fucking burn-ins.

So im trying to figure out where to advertise indieCore radio to make it retardedly popular. Out of all the sites and services i have looked through, MySpace seems to be the best bet. (yea i know selling out and advertising on myspace) Anyways if you know of a better place then please dont hesitate to fucking tell me.

So what are you thankful for? The decent home you have to sleep in at night? The food that fills your fatass? How about the drugs that keep you sane? For me its ladies. I’m thankful that most any girl can handle my dumbass. I mean without women, i’d be gay. What good could come of that? None what so ever. I mean i would be a terrible gay person. I mean im like 1/2 there, but i just don’t think i could handle the gay sex part. So for the ladies that read this, KEEP ME STRAIGHT!

And have a Happy Thanksgiving! (bitches)